I’m thankful that I get to work at home on Tuesdays and Thursday so I can spend 4/7 days a week with this kid. I love her so much it hurts. (Pics from yesterday.) She is too stinkin cute.
It was really difficult to leave for work this morning while she was calling out to me, “Mommy! Mommy!” and I had to just ignore her. Breaks. My. Heart. I love my job and somedays I’m thankful to be out of the house but other days I cry on my way to the office… it’s one of those days.
I might be a little extra emotional due to hormones. Also, we’re savoring our time with this little guy because he might be leaving on Friday. There is a hearing scheduled for 1pm on Friday and as far as we can tell there is a very good chance he will be returning to his mom, which would be a good thing for everyone. But it will also be sad for Jason and I. And especially for him and Ali…they’ve become best friends over the past 12 weeks. Nothing is ever for sure until the judge makes his decision but we’re mentally preparing. We’ll wait until tomorrow evening to try to explain anything to the kids. Last time we thought he was leaving I ended up (surprising myself by) being an emotional wreck the night before. Praying for strength! He was outside with me this morning while Lucy was doing her business and came up to me for a spontaneous hug. He’s grown so much since he arrived at our house on May 3rd… I’ll definitely be writing about all of that soon.
I had been preparing myself to say goodbye for so very long, and I had two whole weeks with a set date to prepare. It still hit like a hurricane the night before. I hope that if he does go back, that you can still get together a few times so you all can hang out. Especially him and Ali. Try to have a good day, knowing that at least tonight they will both be there waiting for you!
So sweet, so sad…and priceless all at the same time. Praying for peace and strength for all of you this week.
Thanks, Esther. It really is such a mix of happy, sad, relieved…and of course it’s all still unknown. It’s possible nothing at all will change.
aww, I hope things go smoothly. Thankfully you and his birth mom have a good relationship, so I would assume you could meet for playdates. Prayers for you and your sweet little girl. It’s hard for them to wrap their brains around at such a young age.